Aches and Pains

 My life is complicated and compressed right now.

Even though the world is waffling with indecision and uncertainty, there are things to do.  From my vantage point, I need to be assertive, visionary, productive, comprehensive, and tireless.

Big things that are rolling forward and require all hands on deck -- or fewer hands working longer.

Some people can't keep up.  Do I help them, forgive them, ignore them, accommodate them or remember and not ask them next time?  I wish there were more choices.  And there are, but they require more of me, more time, patience, grace and flexibility.

I thought I had a lot of that, but my body is shouting at me to stop -- or to stretch and shift and rest.  

When I'm busy tending to outside projects, my house and my "host" (my body house) start to speak in ways I can't ignore.  I ache, I forget to breath deeply and stretch.  I have acid reflux.  I carry such grief and disappointment -- part of it not my fault, and part of it begs the question of my responsibility in light of the circumstances.

You can't change people.

The solution keeps rising with a similar refrain: Grace, Grace, God give me Grace.

And He does.

When I humble and ask, 

And let go.

And then trust.

And be grateful for His provision.